Before and after

The world is still and quite. At night it's always quite but now I feel that quite in me come alive. I feel still. I can think forward complete thoughts. The air is crisper, my head is clearer, there is no longer anything holding me back from my own inner calm. Is this peace? This is! This is peace.

How is it that I feel so good (with detox symptoms of course!) this change has effected my contraction and my energy already. It's so strange to me, because I have done this before. I have been raw at least 3 other times in my life. The last time was the longest. I was raw four years ago for  8 months. Than again for just a month last Summer.

This is me raw one year ago. I was raw for a month. 

This is me now (below)... So what happened? I guess I just forgot! Have you read the book Grain Brain? I can only complete this thought by saying, yes, I have grain brain, and yes, I am re-remembering yet again! But isn't that good?

 All the guru's out there don't seem to have this long term raw up and down roller coaster. Perhaps it's because my living isn't effected by the way I eat. (Well it is somewhat , my performance is effected by what I eat) but I don't have anyone paying me to take care of myself.  In fact the world seems to be ok if I don't. So then I have to do this just for me? This is what I have to face. This isn't a business for me, this is only for me and me alone. This is what needs to be addressed if I am to succeed.