97 percent

Let the detox really begin! I look better, I feel better, I am better. The issue is everything has changed. When it's such a dramatic shift in how I feel everything else shifts. While I am happier for it, I am holding onto my old beliefs and it's exhausting. Transformation is scary. But I have arrived. I don't feel I am following a diet and seeing everything I can't have. I look around and see what I will feel like if I do partake and it's what I will feel like that guides my choices. Is it possible that really figuring out step by step what I digest and what I don't was the key to this the whole time? You mean going slow and observing was the way? It wasn't jumping in to 100 percent overnight. I have never been so sure that slow and steady wins the race. 

Juice fast

This weekend I planned yoga, walks and a three day juice fast. I signed up with our amazing local juice bar in Saratoga springs ny. The Saratoga juice bar was so supportive and helpful. My boyfriend even got in on it! We are both on day 2 and feel great. Yesterday was day 1 and not as hard as I thought it would be. Today I woke up a different person. I woke up happy, loving, and full of joy. If you have read this blog you know I have tried everything. Dairy free, wheat free, grain free. Palio, vegan, vegetarian. I thought I want raw but really I didn't. Today I look back and realize I have tried it all and I don't want the way I felt I want the way I feel now. Juice fasting is how I feel raw. This is what I wAnt. I don't think anything is in my way any more. I really know that nothing else works. I am considering maybe raw but with occasional fish with my family. Eggs and fish are the only things that work. 

So for me I think it's settled. I plan to keep going on the juice fast. I think till Wednesday would rock. I have to see with work and my energy. 

Also I feel excited to realize this is for me and nothing really stands in my way.

I am gas free today, there is detoxing happening, my skin glows and my body feels as it should. 

Favorate coconut milk for tea

Life is incomplete with tea honey and soy milk, then even worse almond milk. Yuck. I am sorry it's just no substitute for creamer. Then, I was in the store and the clouds cleared for this box that stood with magic qualities! My life is complete! That combined with trying decaf tea and loving had made my month. I also read up on the magical qualities of honey! Honey is a gift from the gods! Qualities like bringing in spiritual forces to ones life, rich on enzymes and vitamins, and more. Thank you honey bees, thank you coconut cream, thank you tea! 

Best smoothie ever

We call it the rainbow smoothie! 

6 frozen strawberries with green heads

I cup frozen mangoe

1 cup of coconut creamer

1 spoonful of raw coco powder

1 cup of water 

2!tbs of bee pollen

Blend well but not to much so you can see the sprinkle colors 

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It's been a few weeks since I have written, and part of that has been these experiences that have made me consider 'Is Raw for me?'

I went to Florida for a week and waiting in the airport for five hours was difficult. Then the flying finally began. When I changed planes I had 20 minutes to eat and get back on the next plane. I had been eating high raw, dairy and grain free- but with meat and chicken. I just couldn't shake that last 5 to 10 percent cooked.  A few days before I flew out I started eating dairy again. Just some ice cream, yogurt and cheese. Between planes, I ate a burger and decided, well, why not just eat the bun? I am rushing so I will just do it. I knew I was making an excuse to do what I wanted to do.  (but didn't really on some level) I gave in.

In coach I sat close to another man. Great grandfather. Good conversation. I felt closed in though, more than other times flying. I felt dizzy from the flight. I felt itchy. I could physically feel my body taking on water. I was expanding. I was miserable. I was having a grain reaction.

In Florida I stayed high raw, but dairy and meat remained. I ate 10 mangoes in 5 days. I was in raw food heaven.

When I came back from Florida, I quit dairy. It wasn't hard at all. I was ready and having reactions. I wasn't itchy like from grains. It's truly clear that the itching and excema I grew up with was a grain allergy. I knew I needed to go dairy free. It was keeping me fat. It was effecting my mood and my memory. I could feel the change within two days. It was such a relief.

I decided to take another step. No more meat. No more animals. It was a huge difference. It made all the difference. I didn't think it would matter so much. It mattered more than dairy. I felt a huge change in my digestion.

My boyfriend and I joke. Dairy is a gateway drug to grains. Well, meat is a gateway to dairy, and the cycle begins. I was really missing this link. I feel so free now.

I was at the book store and I was looking through books. I found info on Vegan diets. I found info on the Paleo diet. Everyone loves this one currently. I found info on the Vegan Paleo diet. That's what I am going for I guess. I came to it without a book but here is a book on it.

Then I found a book on coconut flour at my house in my library. It was 10 years old. I remembered making these items before I went raw.

When I went raw everything changed. I was free, thin and happy. But after 8 months, I was out of sink with the world. I was isolated. Perhaps that means nothing now. But does it? Clearly it does. That's why I am not raw now.

Ok so, meat really effects me, dairy effects me, and grains. What else? Eggs seem ok, fruit and veg work, to many nuts doesn't, some cooked and high raw-great.

So after I went Vegan, I felt better. I also felt so gassy! That sucked, but it's passed now. It was bad. Day 4 I added coconut flour pancakes, and my bowls relaxed, and they really relaxed. I went to the bathroom a lot more and with ease. Wow? That's weird? I thought cooking wasn't good? Coconut is a big YES!

So Committed to raw? Yes, to high raw. Committed to not cooking? Yet to be determined. Coconut Flour is revolutionary. It's changing how I feel about everything. I am going to bake and cook and see how it goes. I will keep blogging my changes.

Skin

My skin changes with weather but the internal weather (digestion) truly effects me the most. Tonight I ate ripe cantaloupe. It feels refreshing, and hydrating. Interal hydration is the key to glowing skin. I can drink water but most of it goes right through me. Eat half a melon and all is right in my internal world. 

It's not just nutrition

Nutrition is a huge part of health. I have had a grain free lifestyle for about a month now and a high raw lifestyle but when I add more eggs and cheese in, as I haven't made that 100 percent commitment yet, I go on and off, things change in me. I have pin pointed it to dairy. Duh. Also to meat. Double duh. But I am fine with going a little meaty them a little dairy as long as I stay raw enough. If that changes my digestion changes and I feel unwell. Also caffeine is hard to regulate when tea and honey are oh so good. I have to go for a second cup that's decaf. 

I have been asking myself is it only nutrition. Obviously it's more than that that causes health. It's sleep, exersize, a stress free life, time in nature and so many others. For me all of those things are attractive only when I am high raw though. That's just me though. The path to health is individual.